OH GOD. exam! camps! they're killing me. =) but, i'm smiling. why?! haha. darn. i'm going crazy. shOOt!! well, maybe it's because vill is telling me her stuff that's so damn adorable. hahaha! anyways, tomorrow is multicultural night. its gonna be a BLAST, right...?! and my fren's are actually worrying if its gonna be BORING. why so anyways...? its gonna be great. i hope. haha. being bored. AND i'm BACK to wearing those cheezing specs. gosh i hate the damn specs. haha. i can't wait for braces. =P just wanna fix it FAST! i feel like killing some humans right now! number 1, for destroying my frens. and human number 2, for stealing ice! haha. kiddin. he won't be reading this anyways, so why bother. puahaha. i'm so inluv with fanfix! and gm! and ice saranyu! and tvxq! aaaah! *screams!*

อาจมีเหตุผล เป็นร้อยพัน ที่เธอคิดจะพูดให้ฉันได้ฟัง,
There may be hundreds and thousands of reasons that you want to tell me,

ที่ในวันนี้ ต้องเลิกรักกัน.
Why must end our love today.

ฉันก็เคยอยากรู้ อยากถามว่าทำไม.
And so I wanna know, I wanna ask why?

แต่เอาเข้าจริงก็เปลี่ยนใจ ไม่อยากได้ยินถ้อยคำใด... ไม่จำเป็นแล้ว.
But when I saw the reality, I changed my mind, and I don't wanna hear any of your words...
You don't have to tell me anymore.

ก็ไม่สำคัญอะไรกับฉันแล้ว ไม่ว่ายังไงก็คงจบเหมือนกัน
So it doesn't matter to me anymore, however it happens, it's finished all the same.

ก็ไม่ต้องพูดต่อ เพราะไม่สำคัญ
So you don't have to say anymore, because it doesn't matter.

จบแบบไหน จากตอนไหน ก็เหมือนกัน
However it finishes, or when it does, it's just the same.

ให้กี่เหตุผล กี่ร้อยคำ ก็ไม่ทำให้ความเจ็บช้ำเจือจาง
However many reasons, however many hundreds of words you give me, it will not make my hurt go away.

และนาทีนี้ ไม่ขอรับฟัง
And right now I don't want to hear them.

ไม่ว่าเคยอยากรู้ อยากถามสักเพียงใด
No matter how much I wanted to know, wanted to ask.

แต่เอาเข้าจริงก็เปลี่ยนใจ ไม่อยากได้ยินถ้อยคำใด... ไม่จำเป็นแล้ว
But when I saw the reality, I changed my mind, and don't want to hear any of your words... You don't have to tell me anymore.

ก็ไม่สำคัญอะไรกับฉันแล้ว ไม่ว่ายังไงก็คงจบเหมือนกัน
So it doesn't matter to me anymore, however it happens, it's finished all the same.

ก็ไม่ต้องพูดต่อ เพราะไม่สำคัญ
So you don't have to say anymore, because it doesn't matter.

จบแบบไหน จากตอนไหน ก็เหมือนกัน
However it finished, or when it does, it's just the same.

ก็ไม่สำคัญอะไรกับฉันแล้ว ไม่ว่ายังไงก็คงจบเหมือนกัน
So it doesn't matter for me anymore, however it happens it is finished all the same.

ก็ไม่ต้องพูดต่อ เพราะไม่สำคัญgor mai dtong poot dtor prow mai sam kunSo you don't have to say any more, because it doesn't matter.

จบตรงนี้ จากตอนนี้ เลยแล้วกัน
it's finished right here, and now, and that's it!

after all has happened, i finally noticed that i'm not alone. never alone. i could've been smarter. i should've known. know to not worry. cuz' i'll always have my friends. FRIENDS. what makes it special is they're like the air you breathe. you might not see them. or even know they're here, but they're always here. all around you. you'll never survive without em'. like how human's can't live without air. i love them. them. them forever. feeling misplaced is always something. at first, i never thought that i could have thier back. i never knew. and when everythin fell apart again, they helped me. helped me to put up back the pieces to where it belongs. n when everythin' is complete, and every piece is there, you'll feel like the whole world is turning to you. turning to you to make you happy again. that's what i felt. i felt it. it's something that not everyone is able to feel. i'm the lucky one. i'm happy again. everythin's right where it belongs. so now... where do i go from here...? this or that...? who is who...? me or you...? here or there...? its all either ONE. only ONE.

chantri, just chill. everything is gonna be okay... i keep telling myself that but nothing seems to be working out. its not getting better n better. worst...? maybe. is it gonna be like this forever? don't tell me so. please. never... no matter how hard i pray, no matter how hard i tried, n no matter how much i've cried, everything is still falling apart. there's no where else i can go. i'm stuck in here. i just wanna get away from all this for a minute. just ONE minute. can't i just have that one minute...? all these things that i've been wanting is all i don't want to need at all. n all i need now is a timeout. i don't wanna suffer anymore. i have no one to open up to. at first, i thought i can tell her everything. but there's just somethings that she don't understand. n now, i feel like she don't trust me anymore. fine by me. but i jut want someone to be here. someone... he's not a choice. n she... she... she just have somethings of her own. i don't wanna invade anyones privacy or anything. like people said, no matter how hard you try, sometimes u just won't succeed. everyday, i pray harder. i fake my smiles for everyone to know i'm happy. why can't i survive one day without a single drop of tear? i'm really trying to improve on everything i can. everythin that i'm able to. but there's just somethings i CAN'T. stop pushin' me 'round already. i just need your help. is that so hard to give. just this once. everytime i try to pick my self up from the ground. i just brokedown cuz' i kept thinkin' that i won't make it thru the rain. i won't be able to stand up again. i... i have nothing else to say... nothing seems to be helping. nothing can help me. i wanna leave this world if i could. bu before that, i just wanna see everyone. n everything.