Since when did I became so emotional about friends and problems in school? I don't remember that. AT ALL! What's wrong with me?! I've never been like this. NEVER. I keep praying that this and THAT will all go away. This is me, being emotional. That's all my problems, with her and THEM.

On the 20th, 20st and 22nd of April, one thing came up. Its her. Or is it ME? We had our Annual SMK Puteri Girl Guides Camp. She's never gone for a camp before. I wanted her to go for it. And she did. But it didn't turn out like what I wanted. WHY?! I just told myself to BARE WITH IT. She thinks I abandoned her... Did I? I just felt that i can't be paying 100% attention on her. And so, I went for a hang out with the seniors. I wanted her to come along. But then, on second thought, she might not get along with them well, like... maybe she can't mix with them well. So, I left her behind. I WANTED to tell her, but I can't find her. (If anyone is reading this, and you happen to know what happen, This is NOT an EXCUSE. It is true.) The next morning, she got so moody and told all my friends about it. She's my BEST friends. Well, some of us don't find this a BIG DEAL. But, she's the LAST person in my mind for ME to quarrel with! I NEVER knew it would happen. Ever. I miss her. I miss talking to her.

If you're reading this, I wanna say, I'm sorry. And this is the best i can do. I just CAN'T say it in your face that I'm sorry. I'm not strong enough. I'll just break down UNEXPECTEDLY.

To all my friends that've helped me, that've been telling me to stop crying, that've been telling me to forget about it all, that've been telling me to just be me, I LOVE you all. Guy or girl, I don't care. I just love you all. Thanks for being there for ME.

P/S : I'm sorry.