Why is this happening to me? Why me? What's wrong with me? What did I do? All I want is just an explaination, please. You may not know that this is hurting me, or you may not know that I'm sensitive about this but just tell me... What's wrong? I don't know where I went wrong but I'm sorry.

You're leaving, she's leaving, now what? I'm alone, I don't mind. I just miss you girls. You've been the closest to me here. And losing you girls is not easy. If I've been such a bitch lately, I'M SORRY. What else do you want? Call me whatever, I don't care. I said I was sorry, I've been putting up with your crap for so long and I can't stand it anymore. Let it be. Let her be. Let you be. BE IT. I don't give a flying fart in space about you girls anymore.All I care about is myself. Me, myself and I. What other choices do I have? Beggin for forgiveness for something I did not do is not an option.

I'm gonna study, beat my weaknesses. Beat it, I can... What're you laughing at? I know I can. It's me. It's all in me. Try to stop me, I don't care. I'm not gonna let my feelings get in the way in what I want. Never. Ever. Beginning this moment, I'm doing things my way.

note : Call me whatever, a bitch, a brainy-NOT, a psycho, or whatever... I know I can do it. I have faith in myself. I don't need you girls. I can do it on my own. Hope and faith is all in me. Its him, Wihandro, that I've got, and it's my bestie, Vill and Jess. And him, the one I have right here at the moment, Sum. I love them, they're my everythin.


God wont talk to me. I guess she's pretty busy lately. I'd like to believe She's listening. I'm starting to feel all of my bruises imagined are real. And I'll get through each day, I dig through the bad ones, to get to the good ones. Who's keeping score anyway? And this is my beautiful life. only thing's certain is everything changes. The lows and the highs, and all those goodbyes... As hard as it gets I know it's still amazing, to be alive. It's a beautiful life. I talk in my sleep. Thats the one place I know no one can hear me. I tell myself things, don't walk in the shadows, there's always tomorrow. And I'm right where I wanna be? It hurts while it's happening. I wanna feel everything. How can you know till you try? And this is my beautiful life... My beautiful life. It's a beautiful life. It's a beautiful lie...

Why do I have the stupid feeling that he's the one? And I love it... OMG, I'm loving the feeling! :O Is it just me or am I the only one who feels it? Tell me I'm not alone in everythin...
Everythin I feel,
everythin I think,
everythin I like,
everythin I hate,
tell me Im not a freak.

I'm getting out of hand! "Don't worry, Chantri... Its just temporary insanity." Kept telling myself that and praying that its true. IT IS! Right...? Smiling to myself everyday, lookin at the stupid mirror like a retard, smiling at my cell phone, scribbling his name all over... Ahh, I'm goin crazy, and I don't mind this time... Not this time. I know what i'm feeling and I'm pretty sure of it. Its all him. him. You know its you, say you do. I know you do. You're my everything right now. Tell me you love me everyday and I'll still never get bored of it, still melt... Heart you. You and only you.

"Break it down now, I'll tell you what I feel from the moment that I meet you it was so damn real, my heart seems to skip another beat every time we speak, can't believe I feel so weak. Tell me that you really need me, and you want me, and you miss me and you love me I'm your girl. I'll be around waiting for you, put it down, be the one for you. I 'm fallen so deep for you, I'm crazy over you. I'm callin', callin' out to you what am I gonna do it's true, I'm not frontin, it's you and the weather I could never go on without you, I'll just break down."



Just smile with me,
and roll with me,
I'm inluv with you, baby.

This my long lasting happiness,
my sweet start,
my rockin trail,
and it's gonna be my happy ending.