I guess it's really over.
Posted on: Monday, March 10, 2008
Posted at: 10:51 AM
I have so much to do... ;


I can't believe I've been so stupid, so naive, so... emotionless. I've been so blind, why...? I should've known you're gonna leave me, you'd stop caring about me. Have I been doing this wrongly...? What is it? Tell me... You've always hidden things from me, and I respect your privacy, I do... But this time, I have to know. There's so many things I wanna tell you but everytime it comes to writing it down, I can't do it, I can't tell why. You've been so nice to me. I wonder why.



I remember the day we first talked. You're so funny. Out of no where you came and said Hiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!! Shocker much. Well, I just went with the flow, I didn't know you had problems... When I knew... I wanted to help so much. I helped too much and... I started falling for your sillyness. Oh GOD, I was so damn afraid you'd find out. And on Saturday night, 7.30 PM, Channel V : Kenangan terindah - Samsons, I recieved an SMS from... Yeah you guess it, him. He told me to turn on my TV and turn to Channel [V]. My goodness, I was so in love with that song at that time. He typed down that lyrics and sent it to me. And... he told me that he really likes me and he wants to be my boyfriend. *faints* Imagine my reaction please. I almost screamed my head off. but... He wasn't the only one. Out of all 4, I chose him. I swear that wasn't a mistake. I never regreted that day, my actions.



"I promise, I'll love you forever..."


I've been too naive, I should've listened to you. You wanted this so much and now, here you go, I'm giving it to you. You wanted it to be over so much. So wanted the pain to go away so badly. There... It's over, it doesn't hurt anymore, does it? If you're ever reading this, I want you to think back, all the times we've quarreled, all the times we almost broke up and all the times we actually broke up. You wanted it. You wanted it so much. The 1st, 2nd and 3rd time, here's the last... I'm telling myself, you're my first and last. I can't be daing this, I don't wanna get hurt anymore. I've been hurt by you and that's it. I'm done with everything. I'm only left with 1 quarter of myself in me. I can survive... I believed you. I had faith in you, I put my heart in your hands and thought I'd be safe. I'd always been prepared for other things that tried to break us up, your friends, our parents but it has never crossed my mind that you'd do this. You promised, what happened?



What happened...?



I'm sorry, mai tong bauk laew waa thur ruk chun, because I don't want to hear it anymore... It wouldn't be the same anymore.


It's the way we've loved, like it's forever. There aren't any happy endings in relationships like this, our age, our lives, just US. There can't be any true love either, if you've really loved me, you'd wait for me even though it takes you your lifetime. We can't be freiand anymore because I'm scared of you, Dro. I don't want anything to happen to me anymore. I don't want anyone else to hurt me. We have to go our separate ways. Go through our lives without each other, and when there's something wrong, we have to stop thinking bout each other and just stay strong.



The things I'd miss without you here... ;




"I have to get away, there's no point in thinkin about yesterday, it's too late now, it will never be the same..."


"Baby, I love you, why did you let me go? Yes it hurts me but I still want you to know, all the love we made can never be erased and I promised you that you will never be replaced."



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