it'll all get better in time...
Posted on: Thursday, May 8, 2008
Posted at: 11:20 AM
It's been such a long time without you... Every night... I think about you, without fail since the day you went away. I can't forget you, somehow. Why...? heard my phone ringing and I kept thinking it was one of your sweet messages. But no, it never is. I thought I deserved this... Do I?
I wish I'll somehow find out someday that I really didn't deserve it. And that'll be the day he finds someone new. And even thought I really loved you, I'mma smile because I think I deserve to. If you didn't really notice you mean everything, I'm quickly getting up myself to learn to love again. And I kep praying I'd be okay.
I couldn't turn on the TV without finding something to remind me of you. It really hurts when it heals too. I wish it'll be easy to just put my feelings aside and walk away to leave it all behind... You hurt my feelings just to free yourself. I know I'm gonna heal and time will heal it.
Since there's no more you and me, it's time I let you go so we'd both be equal and free... It will all get better in time. I'll get better in time no matter how much it still hurts, no matter how much I don't understand the reason you gave me. I really love
d you.
dedicated to Villeena Sharmila, I swear I'm sorry. :(
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Posted at: 7:26 PM
VILLEENA SHARMILA
I know, today's the day, I'd probably die. And I still, have the heart to pray to God so you won't do so. Because........ I suck. Okaaaayy... I know. i'm being so Daniel-like that this year, is probably the most horrible year of my life. IT REALLY IS. This is the year that I fuckin forgot my bestest friend's fuckin Birthday. I don't wanna die. Vill, I fuckin swear that I'm sorrrryyyy. I seriously am. I know it's not really helping and all. I was in Kelantan and you know how crappy and busy I would get right... Especially on 2nd May (yes, everyone if you're wondering, it is her birthday) And if you're also wondering WHY was I busy that day, it was Songkhlan in Kelantan. I'm not gonna give any rrasons for my... idioticism.
I wouldn't blame you if you'd give me the silent treatment for 2 weeks (but God, please not more!).
I know I'm a horrible horrible best friend and I'd probably rot in hell for this.
Please, please,
PLEASE don't kill me. I love you. Like ALOT.