Ahh, so many things had happened these past few days. I wonder how people can be so fucking bitchy sometimes. Oh well, I guess they’re born to self destruct, no? J It’s pretty much a random post, just for the sake of updating my blog cause it has been dead for God knows how long. Heh.

Anyway, I’ve been so, so busy these past few days. With the sketch and all that. Due to this little sketch project that we’re having, my so called best friend, S, had been crazy all of a sudden. Should I wonder why? Think not. This was what actually happened, if you’d like to know, go on and read but if you couldn’t be bothered then please, kindly link back to Google and look for something better to do.

I haven’t been in class much, busy with the entire props and all that nonsense. Everything was pretty all right until one fine day. I went to class and started talking to S and T as always, I felt this sudden sense of discomfort between us. Our conversation was rather empty and silent. I ignored the awkwardness, of course. The next day, right after another sketch meeting, I came back to class and walked out of recess with S and T. I was pushing them while walking, kidding around, and all of a sudden she was like “what the fuck is your problem?”. If you’re reading it, you might not have realized it or remember it, but… Not just anybody speaks to me or say those sorts of things to me.
Just so you know, I ignored that either, still cool about it.

I called T and confronted her about it and asked her if she noticed it too, smooth move, I know. -.-‘’ She told me that she’s not sure and told me “Maybe you should try asking her, okay girl? I’m sure she has her reasons for treating you this way, right?” So… I did. She was online and :

C : Hey, are you okay? You seem really down these few days. Everything okay?
S : I’m fine

*the end*

THAT’S ALL SHE SAID?! And here I am trying to make an effort to make things right. A normal human being would think : Omfg what the fuck am I freaking doing?! So that’s what I thought. J After that incident, I tried talking to her in school like always, at least I still had some respect for her along with the friendship I thought I had with her. She continued acting as weird as she has been.

On Saturday, we had cross country at RECSAM and T planned a hang out after that along with S and L and his buddies. I was supposed to tag along. But in the end I didn’t. Oh well… Mom.

The situation didn’t change until one night, a friend complained to me about how S can be and all that crap. I just listened to him and just told him to calm down. He asked me all sorts of things about her but after all that complains, I said to him “I can’t tell you things, you know she’s my friend, right?”. I defended her all the way. And right after that, I found out what she really thought of me. She told him that she doesn’t feel like talking to me lately and that she doesn’t CARE about me.

So tell me, am I supposed to sit here and act like nothing happened? Am I supposed to walk around with my big fake smiles and stupid lies? Thanks, but no thanks. I decided that we shouldn’t be friends or get on with out friendSHIT anymore, since you don’t give a flying fuck about me. What is the whole damn point? I have so many other friends who actually DO care and appreciates me more than you ever did.

And to T, things will get better, okay? Trust me, I’mma help you. *hugs*