blop jai dtua eng waa mai ben rai mai ben a-rai
I told myself that everything was ok, I was ok.

kom jai ao wai mai hai nam dtaa mun lai oork maa
I hid my feelings, not letting my tears flow.

kae ter ja bai kae ter dtong gaan kor lerk laa
You wanted to go, you wanted to end our relationship.

glaeng yim oork maa glaeng tam waa chun mai ben a-rai
I forced a smile to show you that I was ok.

dai piang yeun mong ter gup kao tee gam lung ja jaak chun bai
All I could do is stand and look at you and him as you were about to leave me.

mai mee kum poot jaa dai dai mai mee het pon
Without any words to give me a reason why.

ter dern jaak gun bai chaa chaa mai mee mae dtae kum rum laa
You walked away without even saying goodbye

mai mee kum poot jaa ler-ee suk kum
No words were spoken at all.

kae ter bork waa ruk suk kum ja dai mai
Couldn't you have said you loved me?

reu chuay poot a-rai tee por ja tam hai roo seuk dee
Or said anything that would have made me feel better?

reu ter poot maa ler-ee waa mai ruk waa rum kaan gor yung dee
Or if you said you didn't love me and you were annoyed, it would be better.

dee gwaa cher-ee bai yaang nee laew gor ting bai
Better than leaving me and saying nothing.

gup wun we-laa tee mee hai ter tung duang jai
All the time we had I gave you my heart.

mot laew chai mai kae piang we-laa kae siao naa-tee
But that time had ended, hasn't it? There's only time to realize the time that has past.

jop kwarm song jam lop gaan gra tam fung jai dee dee
The memories have ended and begun to slowly fade similar to the time I knew your feelings well.
jaak bai wun nee toi kum dee dee mai mee suk kum
From this day on, there is nothing left for you to say.

dai piang yeun mong ter gup kao tee gam lung ja jaak chun bai
All I could do is stand and look at you and him as you were about to leave me.

mai mee kum poot jaa dai dai mai mee het pon
Without any words to give me a reason why.

ter dern jaak gun bai chaa chaa mai mee mae dtae kum rum laa
You walked away without even saying goodbye

mai mee kum poot jaa ler-ee suk kum
No words were spoken at all.

kae ter bork waa ruk suk kum ja dai mai
Couldn't you have said you loved me?

reu chuay poot a-rai tee por ja tam hai roo seuk dee
Or said anything that would have made me feel better?

reu ter poot maa ler-ee waa mai ruk waa rum kaan gor yung dee
Or if you said you didn't love me and you were annoyed, it would be better.

dee gwaa cher-ee bai yaang nee laew gor ting bai
Better than leaving me and saying nothing.

kae ter bork waa ruk suk kum ja dai mai
Couldn't you have said you loved me?

reu chuay poot a-rai tee por ja tam hai roo seuk dee
Or said anything that would have made me feel better?

reu ter poot maa ler-ee waa mai ruk waa rum kaan gor yung dee
Or if you said you didn't love me and you were annoyed, it would be better.

dee gwaa cher-ee bai yaang nee laew gor ting bai
Better than leaving me and saying nothing.

reu ter poot maa ler-ee waa mai ruk ter ruam kaan chun dtem tee
Or if you said you didnt love me, you were completely annoyed with me.

dee gwaa cher-ee bai yaang nee hai mun kaang kaa
It would be better than to say nothing and let things slowly deteriorate.

On the day I couldn’t see
my heart I felt insecure
The meaning of loving somebody
it’s something I decide myself
truth can be found in everything

I promise you, I won’t wander off anymore
I’ll be strong...
and prove myself to you
I won’t run away, I’ll turn around to face you
so I can see how you feel, to heart

I will believe
so the two of us can be together in love
In order for my wish to reach the sky
I will look for you, and pray for the two of us
A pair of thoughts, now they can come
together and from a wholeYour precious love
When pain or bitterness pulls us
apart, we can hold each other
We’re no longer alone,
because everything is answered by true love

I will believe
so the two of us can be together in love
I’ll hold your hand forever, don’t let
go, let’s make a promise, the two of us
A pair of thoughts, now they can come
together and from a whole
Just the two of us

I believe that right now we can
strengthen this young and complacent love
There can be truth
A new beginning
I want to be one with you

I will believe
that we can come together
right now, right here, and love each other
So in order to light your light fill me
I hug you tightly

You know that ONE thing that bugs me all the friggin time, again and again is this BAD VIBE I get around people. Around people itself scares me, imagine getting bad vibes around my own close friends.

It's such a horrible feeling. It's like TORTURE!
Another horrible feeling is when you realise somebody actually hates you when all this while you think they never had anything against you. Ahh, not having anything against me is still, acceptable... but HATRED? It's painful. Amazing how it cuts so deep. Ishh.

I'm emotionally depressed lol.

Exam ended! FINALLY! Gahh, feels great to be able to come online again! Isaac's jealous. Muahahhaa! He's on the phone line right now! Poor him, still studying... He thinks I'm mean, but I'm not! Really! Hmph. I feel like eating a whole lot bunch of apples right now. I'm having my braces appointent soon! And I thinkkk I'm gonna get it green and pink this time.

Yeaaay! We're heading to McDonald's tomorrow! Can't wait. BUUUURGEEER! Wheeeeee! More fats! Ahahaha! I'm gonna get MILKSHAKE AGAIN! Grandma' food! Ahaha, Grandma aka Amber! Audrey prefers G-mama. XD. Funny shit. :P

I'm just posting an update for SOMEBODY's sake. You know who you areee! :P

That's it! I'm not gonna let this crap bother me anymore. HMPFF. I'm gonna wake up every morning, smiling to myself and tell myself how great the day's gonna be! :) It was a mistake. People make mistakes. :D I know some mistakes might not be as horrible as the one I've made but oh well, somebody's gotta do it. :P

My eye still hasn't heal yet. :( this is bad. lol, I'mma go to the clinic on Monday when mum comes back.

It's another week left to the next monthly test! GAH, I'm so, so not prepared. I need help for Chemistry and Addmaths. Anybody? ANYBODY AT ALL? Pleaseeeee.

I'm gonna end this entry now. Cause I've got nothing better to say than EAT MORE MAGEE MEEEEE! :D They're yummy. Very yummyyy~ xP

Oh and btw, I was reading Melanie P's blog the other day and came across these words, it's interesting really. :) I liked it alot. :D

Here I stand my life Before You
Can't believe the price you paid
Gave it all just for me
I lay my life upon the alter
Take me now I place my life in your hands

King Of Heaven
You're my saviour
You left Your place of glory
Giving your life just for me
How could i ever repay you
You came into my life lord
You set me free

Everything i am i give to you
You are Holy Holy
Take my life and everything i do
You are Holy Holy

King Of Heaven
You're my saviour
You left Your place of glory
Giving your life just for me
How could i ever repay you
You came into my life lord

You set me free

You are Holy
Give You Glory

I've DECIDED!

I'm gonna create a new Facebook account!
Add up people.

username : Chantri Eh Wan
email : dreamer93@live.com

FXING HELL

do you know what you're doing?! honestly, you're making the biggest slip of your life. :) wow, really... how could I have been so friggin blind? here I am, thinking I"ll never let him go no matter how much I like the other guy". here I am, saying "I'll make things work" and there I was crying over the stupidest things in the world.

what was I thinking? my God. I gave you things you can never dream of having. I'm not mad at you. I'm mad at myself. I'm not gonna be mad at things that aren't worth it. I'm not gonna waste my time on trash like you. people tell me "he's an asshole la Chan". they tell me things I never wanna know about you, I keep defending you for what reasons, I don't know. guess I'm wrong for whatever I thought was right.

just so you know, I'll never in a million years forgive you for what you're doing.
you're a HUGE mistake any girl would make. and for that, I'll give you the credit, you almost had me. you made me feel bad for all I did. you made me take back words I wished I never said. you made me hang on, strong.

you're gonna regret.