"STUDY, chantri, STUDY!"

that's been in my head all morning. but i can't seem to flip a page of my book, WHY?! grrr. i'm so impatient. i suck at memorizing. i need help. maybe therapy would be good. or maybe just a TUTOR! please? gosh, who? who's free enough to even bother teaching me? let alone stand my dumbness.

somebody teach me addmaths. SERIOUSLY, i need this. i really do... i'll do what i can do, read up some biology and history. in fact, i'll do it right after i'm done with this stupid entry.

why am i so difficult?! whyy... i'm so stubborn. hard-headed me. stab me already! i wish my sister was here to teach me or smth :( but she's all the way in KL. i can't even think of a nice hang-out without having it ruined by my ugly thoughts of failing addmaths agaainnnn.

i can't fail. I CAN'T. it'll be such a nightmare. i can't drop calss. i'll never forgive myself if i drop class. why am i having troubles just MAINTAINING itself? am i the only oneeee? i'm scared, honestly honestly scared.

andd anddd.... i miss himm. :(