i've been missing you. been chucking my face into piles of books to keep you outta my mind. ahh, it works, sometimes. but... clearly, not now. i'm doing my addmaths homework and i'm stuckk. very, very stuckk. you know, i've been wanting to tell you so many things, but i never seem to have the guts. ughh, i'm sucha wuss. you get me weak in the knees...

when you told me we weren't a good match, i disagreed. we're the total opposite and i know that well... you're somebody and i'm nobody. i'm not in the 'it crowd' and i'm not living a live in the fast lane. i'm not pretty like your other girlfriends and yeah, i'm not cut out for youu. i don't go clubbing and i don't drinkk. i'm not cool, i understand... but... does it really matter? all i know is that i really, really like you. and you make me smile all the time even when i'm drenched in tears. you still make me nervous and you make me fidget when we're close. you make me do reckless things and make stupid decisions.

i should have said all these things when i had the chance to... i should have. and i regret. but, it's worth a second chance. cause i'll wait for you. even if it takes us 394849740563 years. that's not humanly possible but... i will. as corny as this may sound, for you i will.

I said, "Leave," but all I really want is you
To stand outside my window, throwing pebbles, screaming, "I'm in love with you."
Wait there in the pourin' rain,
Come back for more.
And don't you leave,
'cause I know all I need
is on the other side of the door.

Me and my stupid pride
I'm sittin' here, alone.
I'm going through the photographs,
Staring at the phone.
I keep going back over
Things we both said
And I remember the slammin' door,
And all the things that I misread.
So baby if you know everything
Tell me why you couldn't see
That when I left I wanted you to chase after me?

I said, "Leave," but all I really want is you
To stand outside my window, throwing pebbles, screaming, "I'm in love with you."
Wait there in the pourin' rain,
Come back for more.
And don't you leave,
'cause I know all I need
is on the other side of the door.

And I scream out the window,
"I can't even look at you, I don't need you,"
But I do, I do, I do.
I say, "There's nothing you can say
To make this right again, I mean it,
I mean it"...

What I mean is...

I said, "Leave," but baby all I want is you
To stand outside my window, throwing pebbles, screaming, "I'm in love with you."
Wait there in the pourin' rain,
Come back for more.
And don't you leave,
'cause I know all I need
is on the other side of the door.

i'm so bored right now, i could eat myself. i have a slight fever, and everyone thinks i'm dying. i went for chemistry tuition this evening, and i want to jump off a cliff. what else?! i'm excited, about tomorrow :) with xiannnn hehe ;p

anyway, today's been... boring. i had a horrible nightmare and i was honestly scared shitless. *sighh... but that shouldn't bother me; at all! because he says "i love you" and i believe him :) i'm bored, again. it's FRIDAY! freedommm. ngee. i still have to read up a little before bedtime!

hmm, guess what?! i watched alice in wonderlaaand, finally ^^ nope, not with him but with my girls! heee. with xingying, phaikswen, muha and anchaya :D awesomeeee flick, you can't miss it! no pictures of that day thoughh :( anyway, here are some cute ones!

warning ; the following materials might spoil viewers eyes ;p NYAMM!

it's gonna be a good day todaaay :) the boyfriend had english test and hopefully he does great ;p i know he will~ gurney later in the evening and addmaths with Muha in and hourrr! how great can today get? can't wait for dinner time at gurney drive lateeer! ♥

i hate it when she does that. seriously, why can't you just back off..? i've been so quiet and nice to you. you said you don't wanna hurt anybody but you don't give a fug about what i feel, right? maybe it's not your fault. maybe it's his. or maybe it's just me.


i've never been so... agitated. ever.
all i'm asking for is... just... i don't even know what i want anymore!

wanna watch, anyone? i'm obviously dying to watch it! johny depp never looked better ;p anyway, i wannaaaaa waaaatch! somebody take! xian, wihandro, vill, amber, audrey, muhanniz *hint hint* :D watch with meeeeeee.

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever..?

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever...

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep

aneelliV ♥ ™ says:
*i don't know how deep, and i need you to stop crying and feeling sad, okay sayang?
*this.. is not your battle to fight
*he's yours.
*YOU'VE WON.
*and babe, you've got nothing to worry about

thanks, vill. cause you're right. you're so right.

if i be quiet enough, would you give me what i want? :) would you know what i want?... would you ask? if tantrum wouldn't work, i'll be your good girl.