never again
Posted on: Saturday, June 26, 2010
Posted at: 7:14 PM
i'm so weak.
why can i just do it?
i was never this way.
this isn't me.

i'm falling apart,
and you're not here to catch me anymore.

why am I so incapable of making you happy?
making us happy...
i don't want to give up,
no matter how badly it hurts.
i'm just not ready to let go,
i doubt i will ever be.

p/s; every single day,
i hold my tears back,
hold it back to let it all out by the end of the day,
drowning in tears just to fall asleep.

imy imy imy
Posted on: Friday, June 25, 2010
Posted at: 10:01 PM


"I miss those brown eyes
How you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep

Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you"

imy ♥

invisible
Posted on: Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Posted at: 4:47 PM
random blurts.

i feel stupid, so stupid. i feel invisible. and i feel stupid, again. oh gosh. i can't get over it. i just can't.
send him a million things on his wall and never, not one, nadaaaa, no reply.
and now the bestfriend is gone. wave goodbye atleast.

currently loving this ;

tell them all I know now
shout it from the roof top
write it on the sky line
all we had is gone now
tell them I was happy
and my heart is broken
all my scars are open
tell them what I hoped would be
impossible, impossible
impossible, impossible

...Impossible - Shontelle

convince me
Posted on: Sunday, June 20, 2010
Posted at: 7:28 PM
this is for you you you :)
dear David Yap,

you're the.... apple of my eye :3 and you're the purple colour in my skyyyy. you're the rainbow that comes up after the pouring rain. you're the best thing ever, hunny, i won't love you in vain.

i've been sucha bitch lately, PMSing? :( i'm sorry. but i still lovey dovey you very much and no, you're not a jerk, i take it back <3 after all that happened, things would be different, no doubt. but... things change, for the better maybe?

i'll do my part, can you do yours? i'll stop bugging you but you gotta stop coming home so late and clubbing so often and better still, study more :/
after SPM you can do whatever you want and i won't stop you, that's a pinky promise.

hope you see this soon :)
I love you with all my heart, cayanggg.

XxxxXXXXXX! :3

movie maniaaaa
Posted on: Saturday, June 19, 2010
Posted at: 10:49 AM
i've been like a maniac for movies lately D: of all the movies, i canNOT miss Toy Story 3 :) anyway, i've just watched Killers, starring Ashton Kutcher & Katherine Heigl, oretty awesome, it's cute lahh hehe. Ashton Kutcher is so....... yumm. :3


it's kinda worth watching :D
for Ashton's sake :b

but the highlight was definitely Karate Kid! Jaden Smith is aaaaaaah CUTE! he's like a love magnet :3 super cute omg omg. that kid is 11 freakin years old and look at the muscles in that boy D: and he's so talented, he can act, he can dance, and he can friggin sing ;_; i watched it twice :3 no regrets. Xx!


five stars from ME!

next movie ; toy story 3

somebody take me :)

urgh
Posted on: Friday, June 18, 2010
Posted at: 3:44 PM
"why does it feel so bad to put up a straight voice and talk to you, to fake each smile in front of you... it feels like someone stabbed you right in the middle of your heart and twist the dagger a million times. i hate this feeling."


you'll just go on and think i'm crazy for saying that you changed.

after the day we both argued for the first time, it felt like... everything changed in a split second. the way we talk, the way we think, the way you look at me... and even the way that you loved me.

the more i think about it, the more difficult it is to breathe easy. it gets harder and harder to convince myself it's all okay, when it is clearly not okay. sometimes, i can't help it but to wonder what it would be like if we were nothing more than just friends.

it'll be much simpler than this. if we were just friends, maybe i wouldn't have to worry too much. or even care. then i wouldn't have to be a burden to you. i wouldn't have to be the reason you think twice when you want to do something. and the ugly truth is... maybe it'll hurt less. i'm so done being the one stopping you all the time. tying you to a hundred rules. you hate it, i know. when you say you love everything about me, i want to believe it. i do... but it's just so hard.

but... the one thing that would hurt the most
is leting you go.

i love you too much to imagine how it would be without you. to wake up ever morning and have nobody to think of, to tuck in bed at night and have nobody to wish sweet dreams & i love you, to not have somebody to hug and talk to when i'm knocked out. you're my best friend, you know? you mean everything to me. every little thing in this world would mean nothing without you.

and i hope you know that better than anyone else...

it's us against the world, hunn, hold it up strong.


holiday is bliss
Posted on: Monday, June 7, 2010
Posted at: 10:49 PM
holidays
ho ho ho, like finally!

it's not the time to have too much of fun but i can't help but to think "oh, God, finally it's more sleep for me" D: not looking good for me, i know :( but oh well, life's unfair :) but ah, i'mma study like everyone else :b

fortunately, my holidays started on friday :D which was our trip to KL for the S.O.X. all stars march & cheer competition :) ohmygod, let me just tell you how much fun i had :D *stretches arm and hug the whole wide world* THAT MUCH! :D it was so so fun :) thanks Muha for sleeping beside me :3 and emanuelle, sarah wong, nicole cheah, carmen ngo, nicole linn john for staying up till the crack of dawn together on night one :) and also jet-lagging together the next morn :b


on the verge of falling asleep :b 3am

the event was great, although we didn't win. we didn't go all the way to KL just to win, but for the memories we'd make :D ahh, satisfied with everything :) cheered our heart out and some of em even lost their voices! *coughs* emanuelle & nicole cheah *coughs* :b had fun on the trip backkkk, camwhored with the little ones and chingy :3 sang our lungs out on the way home :)


after cheer ended :D nicole cheah :)


chingy &&& me and njl


love em all :D


nicole linn john ♥
auddy lost her wallet :( and her pillow too. curse whoever that took it, ruined her day so much :(

overall, it was an awesome trip :) we gotta do it all over again :DDD and next time, of course, without the missing things! :) i lovey dovey you all super duper muchies! *huggles*


fave picture :)

yellow's mine :D then clockwise Nicole Cheah, Muha, Sarah Wong, Audrey, Ching Wen, Carmen Ngo, Lee Ting & Farah Mesri :)