you'll just go on and think i'm crazy for saying that you changed.

after the day we both argued for the first time, it felt like... everything changed in a split second. the way we talk, the way we think, the way you look at me... and even the way that you loved me.

the more i think about it, the more difficult it is to breathe easy. it gets harder and harder to convince myself it's all okay, when it is clearly not okay. sometimes, i can't help it but to wonder what it would be like if we were nothing more than just friends.

it'll be much simpler than this. if we were just friends, maybe i wouldn't have to worry too much. or even care. then i wouldn't have to be a burden to you. i wouldn't have to be the reason you think twice when you want to do something. and the ugly truth is... maybe it'll hurt less. i'm so done being the one stopping you all the time. tying you to a hundred rules. you hate it, i know. when you say you love everything about me, i want to believe it. i do... but it's just so hard.

but... the one thing that would hurt the most
is leting you go.

i love you too much to imagine how it would be without you. to wake up ever morning and have nobody to think of, to tuck in bed at night and have nobody to wish sweet dreams & i love you, to not have somebody to hug and talk to when i'm knocked out. you're my best friend, you know? you mean everything to me. every little thing in this world would mean nothing without you.

and i hope you know that better than anyone else...

it's us against the world, hunn, hold it up strong.